Tuesday, December 23, 2008

one cold night

There was one night aku dgn SZ stuck dalam traffic kat KL. It was raining and i was freaking cold. Silence reigned at that particular time, which i thought it was SOOOO not us at all. If you know what i mean! Because of that stupid traffic jam and the A.C, i was fidgeting a bit. He looked at me and..

SZ: awak knape, b?

me: bosan la. bile laa nak grak ni. awak tak bosan ke b?

SZ: tak pun?

me: tak? dah laa sejok. cepat laa gerak. nak shi2 pun ade ni..

SZ: saba la. standard la KL bile ujan2 camni. awak tau tak, kalau skg ni awk rase bosan, saye penah rase lagi bosan drpd ni. ni takde ape pun ni. saye penah rase duduk seminggu dalam utan, kne tggal kat tgh2 utan tu, sejuk2, sorang2..gelap plak tuh. manede ipod time tu. nyanyi sniri. lagi bosan.

me: itu awak..tak ske arr b jam2 bangang camni.

SZ: awak kene blaja b, control things around you. don't let them control you. saye dah lalu macam2 bende, jadi i believe that manusia ni akan jadi lebih bijak kawal keadaan when he has experienced sesuatu bende. cthnye, dulu saye penah susah gile, takde duit sume. jadi kalo skg ni stakat sesak tak cukup duit tu, saye still lagi tadahal lahh..bleh handle lagi lah. tapi kite kire ok la. tiap2 minggu pun makan slere nak tinggi je, shopping2. orang laen?

me: yelah2..insaf. besyukur.. (trying to change the topic) b, dulu mase saye takde, awak bosan2 tak b?

SZ: bosan..

me: (ear-to-ear smile) yeh?? hikhikhik. nape ek b?

SZ: sbb awak tu ske momokak yorr..

hehehe.. first of all, i was glad that the silence was no longer took place. secondly, i was , even am flattered that i mean a lot to his life, tho he put it in a funny way just to admit it. ha!ha!ha!

but most of all, when i think about it, he got the point there. why should i feel bored or merungut2 over small things like that? aku ni bukan la penyabar orgnye. sometimes i wish that i have a super power to suck all the patience out of SZ and transfer it into myself. haaa!!! yelah, macam sylar tuh! how i wish to have some, wait, some? how about ALL of his (good) qualities? yeah, i want all of his good qualities.

i want to be as imperturbable as he is no matter what the consequences are. how he perceives things - which i would have never thought of. well. there must be a reason why God sent him to me, err, or the other way around. maybe i would be lopsided without him. maybe. if not, why people invented the word, better half?

1 comment:

Ashare Alias said...

i cannot imagine myself in ur situation! cinta monyet pun dah buat aku separuh gila.. ni kan pulak kawen. walaweh! haha

glad u are doing good b! *wink